I've been living a different life this last 2+ months. My partner in life has a job that has taken him across the sea since August 1, and I may not see him until Thanksgiving at this point. I have learned to be self sufficient, more so than ever before. The Lord has been with me, and He keeps things within the boundaries of what I can handle with His help.
Being in London visiting for a month's worth of time since August, and having spent an additional 2 weeks in Italy and France in May, I've had my share of travel for the year. This last trip I was feeling uneasy about where my life is going. Life has become transient in a way - less so than Ben's - but still difficult in a way that I haven't experienced before.
This last season of my life I've dealt with a lack of work, loneliness, confusion, fear, and overcoming difficulties on my own that I never anticipated. It has been a learning experience for me. I've been blessed with the ability to work alone, and on projects that were deemed "man's work" and have thrived in that. For those moments of overcoming, I'm grateful. Right now I'm not sure the winter will be as easy to tolerate. I anticipate different things that I'm not used to handling myself. I know that the Lord is with me always, and He will provide all I need in order to accomplish and excel in the things life throws at me.
Since this last trip over seas, I've had the blessing of being asked by no less than 7 clients, new and old, to do work for them including graphics, illustration, logo design, etc. I'm also waiting on a decision to be made on an interview I had just before leaving for London October 1. So far, my first day back in the US, I've had confirmation of work from all of them. I'm blessed. The Lord knew that I would be alone and lacking much in the way of distraction. This is the perfect distraction, because it allows me to add to our income. He knows who I am, so intimately, that His work in my life comes along right when I need it. I have had the faith and understanding of His work in me to realize when He is working and when He is asking me to wait on His timing. Although it's very difficult to be still and wait, I know that when I do, I'm honoring Him, and honoring His great work. I can't do anything that He can do, and I know that. His timing is best, however difficult it may be. These last 4+ years have been a learning experience, and a challenge to my patience, faith, and trust in the Lord.
I encourage my friends and followers to sit quietly in the moment of confusion. To listen closely to what the Lord is saying and doing. He IS speaking. We need to listen. When we don't hear, WE are the ones not finding our silence. God has not ever moved, we do. We move away and closer to the Lord, depending on our circumstances. It's easy to be moved by life's difficulties and blessings. It's most difficult to not hear from God. But I've known both - the silence of not hearing His will for me, and the beautiful sounds of His blessings on me. It takes practice. It takes time... but He is always there, speaking in His still small voice.
Thank you for all of you who read my words and bless me with your friendship. I hope you're blessed as well.
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